Okay, so this one will be quick. I have just realized that I don't have very many places to bear testimony of the Savior. Church isn't a thing anymore, we aren't hanging out with groups of people, haven't really seen my family much, and it isn't super normal/natural to just dive into testimony time... yada yada yada... all kinds of excuses, right?
BUT, I think because of that, because I haven't vocalized it in a while, because I haven't really said it out loud, I'm at risk of forgetting it.
So here we are. I want to share with you guys my testimony of Jesus Christ.
I'm not perfect. FAR far from it. My list of shortcomings, no matter how hard I seem to work on them and try to curb them, seems to ALWAYS be longer than my list of strengths. I have doubts. I have fears. I have a hard time following direction. I am lazy. I am impatient. My priorities are frequently out of whack. I'm often clueless when it comes to others and their needs. It's frustrating.
However, I count myself lucky that one of my strengths is my faith in our Lord Jesus Christ. I know that through Him, that stupid list of crap I need to work on, CAN SOMEDAY be finally eliminated. That because of what He did, I can repent of all the dumb things I do.
And not only that, all of the unfair pieces of this life... all of the poverty, all of the sickness, all of the imperfections of government, all of the wars, all of the systematic failures of our human institutions... it will all be fair through the Atonement. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed about that... I feel guilty that my "luckiness" has brought me to a point of relative stability and comfort... while others will never see that. And I get sad. BUT, when remember that there IS a plan for it all, I find relief. It isn't the easiest answer because I am a man of the moment - I wan't it and I want it NOW. I want things to be fair NOW. BUT, it will be fair in the end... whenever that is. That doesn't mean we don't do everything we can right now to better our fellow human being's situation and alleviate suffering (just like we try our hardest to stop sinning, even though we know we can always repent and use an infinite atonement) - but it does give me peace when I feel like my efforts don't seem to make much of an impact.
I am grateful for the Savior. I have a testimony of the efficacy of the Atonement. It works. It is real. There is room there for everyone. I will continue to drink deeply from the well and rely on this incredible gift. What a blessing!
BUT, I think because of that, because I haven't vocalized it in a while, because I haven't really said it out loud, I'm at risk of forgetting it.
So here we are. I want to share with you guys my testimony of Jesus Christ.
I'm not perfect. FAR far from it. My list of shortcomings, no matter how hard I seem to work on them and try to curb them, seems to ALWAYS be longer than my list of strengths. I have doubts. I have fears. I have a hard time following direction. I am lazy. I am impatient. My priorities are frequently out of whack. I'm often clueless when it comes to others and their needs. It's frustrating.
However, I count myself lucky that one of my strengths is my faith in our Lord Jesus Christ. I know that through Him, that stupid list of crap I need to work on, CAN SOMEDAY be finally eliminated. That because of what He did, I can repent of all the dumb things I do.
And not only that, all of the unfair pieces of this life... all of the poverty, all of the sickness, all of the imperfections of government, all of the wars, all of the systematic failures of our human institutions... it will all be fair through the Atonement. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed about that... I feel guilty that my "luckiness" has brought me to a point of relative stability and comfort... while others will never see that. And I get sad. BUT, when remember that there IS a plan for it all, I find relief. It isn't the easiest answer because I am a man of the moment - I wan't it and I want it NOW. I want things to be fair NOW. BUT, it will be fair in the end... whenever that is. That doesn't mean we don't do everything we can right now to better our fellow human being's situation and alleviate suffering (just like we try our hardest to stop sinning, even though we know we can always repent and use an infinite atonement) - but it does give me peace when I feel like my efforts don't seem to make much of an impact.
I am grateful for the Savior. I have a testimony of the efficacy of the Atonement. It works. It is real. There is room there for everyone. I will continue to drink deeply from the well and rely on this incredible gift. What a blessing!
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